October personal photos || Fairfax Virginia family photographer
October was a big one. Not just because there are a million and one photos in this post, but because we celebrated our little bug's first birthday and then not long after moved to our new home. It's still really hard for me to believe that Cantor is one. Staring at my newborn baby toddlerhood felt so far away. But here we are. I blinked and he turned one. "Long are the days, but short are the years" is the most accurate quote I have ever heard regarding motherhood. Most days around here are pretty mundane. I work a little, we play a little, I try to do dishes and laundry and cook dinner. Somedays I feel a little restless for something more exciting. Somedays I feel a little overwhelmed at the never-ending to-do lists of being a wife, mother, and small business owner. But most days there is quiet content-ness for this season of life. And an acute awareness that someday I will miss these years tremendously.
In the days leading up to my son's first birthday, my heart ached badly. It felt like this big day that loomed in front me to steal my little baby away. But his birthday came and went and I settled into the realization that he will always be my baby boy. My first born. The one who made me a momma. And another reality hit as well. I love being a toddler mom. No, I don't love constantly chasing him out of EVERYTHING or the tantrum that often results from being told "no" but I do LOVE sleeping through the night consistently. And I love how "easy" life is compared to the baby stage. But mostly I just love watching him blossom into his self. Discovering new things on a daily bases and running to give me hugs and kisses are my absolute favorite. I couldn't have said this last month, but being a toddler mom really is the best. Though I'd still give anything to have just one hour of babyhood back again. These photos are my desperate attempt at preserving the last month of my baby-baby, and the home we lived in.